Oh hello, I see you there poking out of the grass...
Friday, July 31, 2009 My email box is full. My desk is a city of skyscraper piles. I have to write a to do list to write a to do list. I hate to admit this, but I cringe when the phone rings. I actually do! Because I dread that it will add one more thing to my to do list.
I conceptually view the things I have to do as small tasks that all have a neat space in my brain. Lately, my brain has been full to capacity. So when a new task enters my brain, some unfortunate, sad task spills out somewhere else. It slowly rolls away and I don't notice. I forget about the task until the someone reminds me that it exists. I search frantically for some trace of where it was or where it has gone, but it's not there. I'm sure it's on the road somewhere between here and there, maybe on State Street...but, it's a moot point...I don't have time to look for it! I've never been this way before. I'm navigating it and learning to be different. I wish there were a magic button that I could push and expand the capacity I have in my brain, the time in a day, the amount of attention I can devote to each person and each aspect of my life. But I can't. I can only try to get better at balancing, prioritizing and using my time for things that really matter. And even though it's stressful and hard I wouldn't change it. I love learning new things and meeting new people. I would rather have all of those things and grow than be comfortable in my sameness. But that's not the point today...
In the midst of it all, I have to be grateful for the wonderful things that remind me of who I am and where I come from. Call them what you want...tender mercies...blessings...precious moments...I like to call them reminders. Small things that poke their head out during the day and make you stop and smile. Reminders, because through everything else I see them poking through and I'm suddenly calm again. I'm calm because I remember to take a step back, to view things in an eternal perspective. I know who I am and I know why I'm here. I know that the Lord leads and guides me. Thank you for these moments that make me stop and smile and feel like home. Like this one...
Reader Comments (1)
Very calming picture - much needed this week!